TODAY IS THE DAY! I’m in the worst shape of my life . . . okay, not the worst shape. But I’ve almost gotten back to my heaviest weight and although I have been exercising for a while now, I’m still tired a lot, would rather sit than be up taking care of things, and am exhausted at the end of every day. I need all that to change & I’m starting today on a Friday — not waiting for Monday! I’ll post each Friday with an update on how its going and any great tips or recipes I find along the way in case you want to do it with me too.
Here’s the long back story . . . not excuses, just how I got to where I am today:
I was never happy with my weight in high school. Although, looking back, I sure wish I could go back to that weight again! After high school, I started running . . . jogging, really. And I felt really great! Unfortunately, shortly after running my very first 10k I got a mosquito bite while jogging that we believe was the cause of a strep infection in my leg. It was several days before I could walk without severe pain and jogging was not even an option for a long time. Then, my young adult years got busy with school and work and I just didn’t get back to the great routine I had started out with.
After getting married, the first several years were very difficult. We wanted to start a family right away and I had some medical issues in the way that caused a whole lot of emotional distress. I was a major stress eater during this time and during the times when I was working full time we did a lot of eating out — bad, bad, bad! Along with not having an exercise routine, that really took me to being in the worst shape of my life. And feeling awful about the way I looked and being sluggish and tired didn’t really help with all the emotional stuff.
But I had started my own business and was loving what I was doing. And I also met some great women along the way who were very inspiring. I managed to start eating better and get some pretty regular exercise to drop a few pounds.
When we started fertility treatments, my forward progress stopped and it was very hard not to fall completely back to where I had been. The medications were hard on my body and much of the time made me feel too miserable to exercise or do anything else. Plus, that stress eating was there again because going through fertility treatments is about the most stress I’ve ever felt.
When I finally got pregnant from InVitro (IVF) after 3 years of fertility treatments, it was a rough pregnancy. But I was pretty proud of myself for keeping the pregnancy weight gain to a minimum. When our first baby was just a few months old, my husband headed out of the country for work and was gone for 5 months. I went to stay with my parents in another state and while I helped around the house and had a baby to take care of, my responsibilities weren’t nearly as much as running a house by myself. Even though having my husband gone was certainly stressful, I kicked into gear and got myself moving. I started running again (even in the horrible Arizona summer heat) and being careful with my eating and by the time Jeff got home I was a couple sizes smaller and really feeling great.
That became a cycle. Fertility treatments again, followed by a reasonable weight gain in pregnancy, and dropping the weight and a little bit more after pregnancy . . . two more times first with one baby and then with twins. When the twins were born, our oldest was still 3 for another month and there was also a two year old. But somehow, I did it again. This time, I did a couch to 5k program and when the twins were just a few months old, I ran my first 5k in years.
The cycle started again for our last baby. But when she was born, she was rushed to the hospital by ambulance at 6 days old. She was put on oxygen and had to stay on oxygen for the next 11 months. Because of an unrelated heart issue, we were told she couldn’t get sick for the first 6 months or it could be very dangerous. So, we kept her secluded as much as possible and even after that 6 months. Even after we came out of seclusion, keeping up with carting around an oxygen tank and all the extra doctor’s visits really kept me from focusing on myself at all. It wasn’t long after she got off of oxygen and we all felt like we could breathe a little again that we started the next round of IVF. Even though it didn’t work this time, it took months out of my life, prepping with medications and doctor visits.
When we got past that, we had finally reached a good point in life. I was going to the gym every week day after dropping the older kids off at school. The younger kids loved the childcare and getting to spend an hour there every day while I worked out. But even though I was working out, the weight wasn’t budging. A good friend told me to remember that my body had been through a lot in the last few years and to give it time. I also felt that some of it had to do with turning 40. It just seemed like it was so much harder than it would’ve been at a younger age.
Now we’re getting closer to today. Late last year, we started the process of moving to a new state. We did a lot of eating out and convenience foods while getting our house ready to sell and having it on the market. When we moved, we ended up in a hotel for about 6 weeks which meant lots more of the same kind of eating. Only now, I didn’t have my gym and really no way to get out and exercise. That was a 10 lb weight gain right there.
About two months after finally moving in to our new house, we were stunned to find out I was pregnant. I was exhausted all the time and eating a lot of convenience foods again since I was too tired to do anything more. Unfortunately, just a couple weeks later, I started the process of miscarrying. It took me five weeks before I lost the baby and it was a very hard 5 weeks, knowing what was happening and the physical tole that it was taking on my body as well. I gained another 10 lbs during all that.
So, here we are today . . .
I have a lot of weight to lose to get where I can feel good again. Life is just so hard carrying around all the extra weight and I’m ready to be rid of it. I do finally feel like I am ready to focus on taking care of me. Here’s how I’ve prepped:
- sold my umbrella stroller and sit & stand stroller to buy a used jogging stroller – I plan to get out and walk/run every morning after walking the older kids to school
- have a list of our family’s favorite healthy meals that I’ll be cooking from mostly
- taking Plexus Slim – it hasn’t helped with energy levels, curbing sugar cravings, or weight loss yet, but I believe its the reason I got pregnant on my own for the very first time, so I think its helping my hormone levels
- got my fitbit and a goal of 12,000 steps each day (I’ve had a few 16,000 step days in the last week)
- Beachbody on demand for the days when I can’t get out of the house to exercise because of bad weather or sick kids
I’ll check in every Friday and share how the week went and any great, healthy recipes I’ve found or tips that are helping. I’d love for you to share your favorite tips with me if you’re already doing great at keeping in shape or follow along and do it with me if you have a ways to go like I do. So, please leave a comment if you have any thoughts you’d like to share — I could really use the support!